24-4-13

I know I promised a photo of the chair, but I get to complete it this weekend and will put a photoset up instead.

Today was better than yesterday at least, I'm not such a grump. We had a math test, which my teacher decided he'd turn up an hour late for. I feel confident that I didn't fail, and there was only 1 question I couldn't answer.



<Had my hair in buns today but there was excess hair, so I plated there rest. I quite like it.

Eeep

With my cut fringe that I did last week. It's growing on me now.

I FOUND THE CHAIR. I went to an op shop coming home from uni today because I spotted some furniture outside the shop while I was driving past. It exactly how I wanted it and the seat is cushy, so I wont have to be replacing it. I only spent $20 (I could have bought a cheaper one, but I liked this one more). I will upload some images of it tomorrow.

I can finally get started on my DIY project. Now to get some fabric and paint, so I can decorate after I've sanded it back and fixed the footing (slight chipping). AAH I'm so excited.

On another note, got another part of my major assignment back today. I did much better than I thought and turns out that I was freaking out that I didn't do enough for nothing, I DID TO MUCH, ahah. But I still got 11.5 out of 15. Now I have to start with my essay which is due in 2 weeks. Wish me luck!!

Week Off

Had a week off but didn't manage to do a vlog or post here, I've been lazy. I went back to uni today and had a test for biodiversity, I'm confident that I didn't fail, but I probably didn't do as good as I'd hoped for. I find out in the next couple of weeks though.

The iPad they gave us is the biggest distraction I could ever possibly imagine, I didn't log onto my computer FOR A WEEK. How bad is that. Turned out not logging onto my computer gave me a very nasty virus that I had to spend a few hours fixing and backing up my HDD.

I cut my hair again, just the fringe this time, just above my eyebrows. I'm not too pleased with and will try fix it later on. I'm trying to refrain from cutting any length from my hair so that it manages to grow to the length that I want it.

Do you guys think I should take photos and post them here more often, I'm trying to be a better blogger but I don't dedicate enough to it.

Great thing about my course is great stuff like this, got my iPad at collection today. I've already set up a few things and am trying to find a few worthwhile apps to put on it.

Ideas

Massive DIY plan ahead.

Since getting my desk for my room I have been meaning to get a chair for it. I currently have a gas lift chair that I'm borrowing from another room in the house and its waaaaay to big for my room. I want to see if I can get a second hand wooden chair with padding on the base and on the back so that I can reupholster it with black velvet. I want to sand back the chair and add some extension on to it before painting it a colour, haven't decided what yet, I may just go for black to match with the velvet but I will see when I compare colour swatches and choose then. I'm really excited for this to start happening.

As for uni, all is going smoothly. I have already had my first assessment and test, and managed to pass on both. I have a major assigment coming up soon, so I should start planning what I will be doing soon so I don't get to far behind. I also get my iPad this week. Which means I will have something to be able to efficiently take notes with considering my laptops battery is broken and wont work without the charger BUHUH.

A vlog will be up sometime during the week.

Video

Okay so I want to try out video blogging, they all be put here via youtube. I don't know what I will talk about or video so if you can, suggest me some things.



<This is my cat Rusty and I. He was playing on my chest with my hair so I decided to start recording only he calmed down by the time I started.

mardi

 

I stopped putting it off and finally bought myself a task, with my impending work load its seemed like the right time to do it. I had to depart with one of my bookshelves though to make room for it, just glad that its big enough to hold some of the stuff so I wont have to re-home those either.

Also since the last time I uploaded a picture of myself here my hair has grown quite a bit, I'm thinking of cutting my fringe again but maybe have it all layered, the bottom half is still shaved off so you can imagine how thick my hair would be if I still had it.

Uni

I have finished my first week of Uni. So far it seems really good, the work doesn't seem that hard and from what my teachers and lecturers are saying it seems that I'd be able to cope with the work that I would be doing so long as I focus, study and don't leave things to the last moment. I've met a few nice people already so I'm hoping that next week I'll get to know some more people and the place better. I'm excited!

Getting Older

So my birthday was on Friday and I'm now 18. To me that doesn't make much of a difference a part from it being legal to now go buy alcohol and go clubbing. I kept it pretty simple though, in the morning I went shopping with my mum and she bought me some clothes and shoes that I needed. Around lunch time my bestfriend Jessica came over my place and we watched The Rugrats Movie and caught up with everything. Around 6 Jessica and I headed out and met up with 2 of our other friends; Jessicas boyfriend and Jess no.2. We played two games of bowling, had dinner, a game of laser tag and a game of pool. I sucked the first in the first game of bowling, but made a comeback and one after a drink in the second round. Overall it was a pretty good day.

Fitness

Developed a bit of a routine, and managing to STICK TO IT! aha. For the last week and a half I've been starting to get back into walking and running. Only doing small amounts at the moment but I'm already feeling the effects. I feel so much better! I don't feel lethargic and tired all the time, my skin is improving a little. I think If I keep up with this and change the way I eat ( cut out all the nasties) I'll be feeling even better, like how I should be feeling and looking. Its exciting in a way.

yatta yatta

Gave in and started writing again. Mainly I write just personal stuff, the things that I'm uncomfortable writing online about with nosy prying eyes. I find its so relieving to be able to vent to something without anyone actually knowing. I like the secrecy, the mysterious of writing something no body will ever see until someone stumbles upon it, or you stumblr upon it yourself. Somewhat like a time capsule in a way. Expressing more about a moment that any photograph ever could.

Appart from that I'm going more in depth with trying to get myself to learn French and Japanese. I found some really helpful books that I will buy once I come upon some money, I don't see myself undertaking any courses though, I think it will just aggravate me and make me emotional. I like learning on my own, its the only method that I can actually learn.

I have some pictures to upload on here soon...

Catch up

Things that have been happening the past few months:

• I went to more parties/outings than I have ever been to from the ages 12-16, which is kinda lame, but hey at least its a start and I don't feel as much as a social oddity anymore.
• I graduated from highschool.
• I'm almost finished my HSC exams.
• I finished my major work in art (I'll post pictures once its returned to me from marking)
• I dyed my hair back to brown/black.
• I had my formal.
• I stopped trying to please everyone by acting differently.
• I gained like 10 kilos from stressing out about school.
• I started working out to lose those 10 kilos.
• I applied for University
• Got my first car.
• and a heap of other somewhat boring stuff but eh.

So that what's been happening to summarise.

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I'm freaking out so badly. I may not show it to the people around me, but my mind is racing. Schools nearly over in a matter of almost 12 weeks. I have my yearlies and HSC trials next term, my BOW of work is due in 5 weeks, I'm so stressed out about it. I can't study to save my life. I'll sit down with a pen and paper and try right down the stuff I need to remember but after about 30mins I can't do it anymore. I'm going to fail chemistry because my teacher is lazy and gets us to learn of youtube videos every lesson (like that's going to help with anything) and Im going to fail math.

We just had a take home test for math and I honestly could not finish it, I know I have done the stuff in class but I just am unable to do it. I feel really bad and horrible, I do not want to fail my HSC, considering I need to get at least 80 in all my subjects ( Mathematics 2 unit, Advanced English, Biology, Chemistry and Visual Arts) to get to both of the Universities I'm applying to that have the course I want to study.

I want to do a Bachelor of Fine Arts/Arts and instead of 4th year honours, Im going to be doing secondary teaching.
I also need to find a job.
It's I don't know How Im going to do any of this.

my room

There's shadows all over the roof, aha I thought it was cool.

personal post

It's the beginning of the holidays now, which is scary because that means I have only 20 weeks of school left and I'm finished. I should start studying more, I got my half yearly reports back and they sucked so badly I only passed in 3/5 of my subjects. Anyway I have this math formula booklet I'm suppose to make, and I left my textbook at school in my locker -facepalm-. So now I have to go about making it from memory. My friends birthdays on Wednesday so I have to make something I have planned before then, and I'm currently making more bows. I'm buying clips and elastic in bulk shortly to add to them.


I'm feeling really confused at the moment. I'm in this kind of ditch where I don't know what to do. I don't know what I want to do after I finish highschool. I mean I have a few ideas but I'm still undecided. I want to try get some new friends, I have one or two close friends and the rest I don't even know. I hate how they pretend to know or like something I mention to them, I don't care if you don't know/like it but don't go pretending you do, its really pathetic. In all honestly I feel really lonely. Kind of like this sinking empty feeling and I don't like it.